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In moments of extreme tension, we experience madness. The only difference between us and the mad is that the water of our daytime dilutes the wine of our nights, whereas their situation is a permanent night. Am I my unconscious or the social being that you see before you, a creature whose autobiography is frivolous? It is my consciousness of life that counts, and I gain access to that consciousness through my characters, who sometimes take me places I don't want to.

–hoda barakath

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e_\okv B`y´c Iem]w 1975 apX 90 hscbmbnêì. 1975 emWv Rm³ bqWnthgvknänbn \n¶v ]pd¯v h¶Xv. Iem]IepjnXamb s_bvdq«nembnêì PohnX¯nsâ XpS¡w. `oXnbpsS \nc´c km¶n²yw \s½ ]cn£oWcmçw. AXv ka\ne sXän¡m³ XpS§nbt¸mgmWv Rm³ s_bvdq«v hnSm³ Xnêam\n¨Xv. kam[m\w Hcn¡epw aS§nhcnsöv tXm¶n¯pS§nbnêì. 1989 emWv ]mcoknte¡v t]mbXv. B`y´c Iem]¯nsâ \mfpIÄ GXmWvSv ]qÀ®ambpw Aë`hn¨p Fì ]dbmw. Fsâ ktlmZcn ]mcokn ]Tnçì­mbnêì. AhnsS sNdnsbmê ÌpUntbm ^vfmäpap­mbnêì. AXp am{XamWv ]mcokv sXcsªSp¡mëÅ ImcWw. I¿n IminÃ, tPmenbnÃ. amk§tfmfw Rmëw cWvSp æ«nIfpw ktlmZcns¡m¸w sNdnb CSw ]¦n«p Ignªp. C¶sXmê Zp:kz]v\w t]mse tXmìì. F¶m F\n¡nt¸mÄ tJZanÃ. e_t\mWnte¡v Xncn¨p t]mIWsa¶v tXm¶nbn«nÃ.

kvt\ln¡mt\m Dt]£n¡mt\m Ignbm¯ Hcmsf {]Wbnç¶Xp t]msebmWv F\n¡v e_t\méambpÅ _Ôw. B tZiw, P\X, AhnSps¯ _p²nPohnIÄ, Iem]§Ä Hì Fs¶ Ct¸mÄ _m[nç¶nÃ. Ah[n¡me¯v Rm³ _njmdbnte¡v t]mImdpWvSv. P·{Kmaamb _njmdbmWv æds¨¦nepw e_t\méambn Fs¶ cayXbnemç¶Xv. F¶m s_bvdq«nent¸mgpw F\n¡v A]mb`oXn Aë`hs¸Spw. s_bvdq«v Xs¶ Xncn¨dnbm\mhm¯ hn[w amdn¡gnªp. Rm\dnbp¶ s_bvdq«v Aà CìÅXv. Tiller of Water F¶ t\mhen Cu ]Ým¯eaméÅXv. 

HäinemLS\ FìÅXmWv Ad_v kwkvImcs¯çdn¨pÅ s]mXp [mcW. aê`qan, CÉmw XpS§nb ]Xnhv _nw_§fneqsSbpÅXv. F¶m \n§fpsS Fgp¯n\v Hê saUnätd\nb³ Aë`hXXeap­v. \n§Ä ^o\ojy³kv, æÀ±pIÄ XpS§n ]mÀizhXvIcn¡s¸« P\hn`mK§tfbpw D]kwkvImc§sfbpw ædn¨v kwkmcnçì.

Ncn{Xw Hcn¡epw hwi hnip²nbpsS Ncn{XaÃ. AXv FÃmbvt¸mgpw IeÀ¸pIfptSXmWv. kmwkvImcnI hyànXz§Ä GsX¦nepw {]tXyI `mjbptStbm, kwkvImc¯ntâtbm kzImcy kz¯Ã. Zmt´bpw tjIvkv]nbdpw Cäen¡mêsSbpw Cw¥ojpImêtSbpw am{Xw DSaØXbnepÅXÃ. temI kwkvImcw s]mXpkz¯mWv. CsXsâ kwkvImcamWv, aämÀçw CXn Imcyanà F¶v \n§Ä¡v Hcn¡epw ]dbm\mhnÃ. A[:]X\¯nsâ ]Spægnbn \nì sIm­p am{Xta \n§Ä¡v C§s\ ]dbm\mhq. PoÀ®n¨p XpS§p¶ Hê L«¯nemWv GXp kwkvImchpw hnip²amIm³ B{Klnç¶Xv. F\nçÅXv FtâXp am{XamWv. aäv kwkvImc§fn \n¶v Rms\mcn¡epw Hìw FSp¯n«nà F¶Xv AÊw_ÔamWv.

  \Po_v alv^qkv kmlnXy ]pckvImcw kzoIcn¨psImWvSv slmZ _dJXv \S¯nb {]kwK¯n \n¶v......

 kmlnXyw \½Ä A[nhknç¶ Hê temIaÃ.  \½Ä {]nbs¸«hÀ¡v \Âæ¶ kpµcamb Hê ]mcntXmjnIhpaÃ.  AXv hni¸IäpItbm Zmlw ian¸nçItbm sN¿p¶nÃ. BhiyanÃm¯Xpw {]tbmP\clnXhpsa¦nepw anYyIfnepgdn, bYmÀ°temI¯n\v ]Icw \nevç¶ H¶mbn, hnjaL«§fn AXv \½psS AcnInse¯pw. 

 æ«n¡me¯v A½ HêXcw klXm]t¯msS Fs¶ ka{]mb¡mcn \n¶v  amän \nÀ¯nbnêì, clkyam¡n h¨ Ft´m Zo\¯nsâ t]cnÂ. Rms\mê ambmtemI¯msW¶v ]Xnª iЯn CSínsS ]dbpw.  R§Ä Hêan¨v hmbn¡m\ncnçt¼mÄ AhÀ I®ocv XpSípIbpw Zp:Jt¯msS Xebm«pIbpw sN¿pw.

Hê Znhkw anZmIv Aen F¶ ]pkvXIw R§Ä hmbn¨pXoÀ¯t¸mÄ, AXnsâ ]pdwN«bn ssI¯ew hnSÀ¯nh¨v AhÀ ]dªp, "CXà bYmÀ° temIw'.

AXv bYmÀ° temIasÃìw Hê Fgp¯pImcsâ krãnbmsWìw F\n¡dnbmambnêì. ]t£ Cu Adnhv F\n¡v Hê Xc¯nepw {]tbmP\w sNbvXnÃ. ImcWw bYmÀ° temIw F\ns¡hnsSbpw IWvsS¯m\mbnÃ. ]ckv]chn겧fmb hnImc§Ä  FsâbpÅn Gäpap«n. Rm³ temI¯nsâ AØncamb AXnÀ¯nIfnteív Xpc¯s¸«p. hmbn¨ ]pkvXI§Ä Fs¶ amän, Fsâ æSpw_s¯t¸mse Fs¶ hfÀ¯n hepXm¡n. Ct¸mÄ Rms\sâ t\mhepIÄ hmbn¨p t\mçt¼mÄ Fsâ IYm]m{X§Ä Fs¶¡mÄ bmYmÀ°yt_m[apÅhcmsW¶v Nnet¸mÄ tXm¶mdpWvSv. bYmÀ°temIt¯mSv Rm³ CS]gæ¶Xnt\¡mÄ IqSpX ]IzXtbmsS. AhÀ Fs¶ Fsâ bYmÀ° kzXz¯nteív ssI ]nSn¡mdpWvSv.

"anZmIv Aen FgpXnb Bsf HmÀçìWvtSm, At±l¯nsâ t]cns\m¸w Fsâ t]cv tNÀ¡s¸«ncnçì' F¶v Cu ]pckvImceÏn Adnbn¡m³ hnfn¨t¸mÄ A½tbmSv Rm³ ]dªp . Hê ]t£ Ct¸mÄ sshê²y§fpsS `qanIbn Cu XmXv¡menI CS¯nsâ at\mlmcnXbn Rm³ kpc£nXbmWv.

\Po_v alv^qkv kmlnXy ]pckvImc¯n\v Fs¶ AÀlbm¡nbXv Fsâ "DgpXpadnç¶ shÅw' F¶ t\mhemWv. _nw_§fpsS F{X hnNn{Xamb apJmapJw! Dghv shÅw; XIÀ¡s¸« \Kc§fpsS iq\yXbn Úm\¯nsâ Øm\¯v ImelcWs¸« IYIfmepw , Iå\Ifmepw \½Ä ]p\À\nÀ½nç¶ sNdnb, Hmc§fnse PohnX§Ä .......

CXv Rm³ A`nam\nç¶ Fsâ XeapdípÅ ]pckvImcamWv. ktµl¯nsâ almhgnIÄ R§Ä¡mbn \nÀ½n¡m³ t¢in¨ HcmfpsS t]êambn Fsâ t]cv tNÀ¡s¸Sp¶Xv Hê _lpaXnbmWv.

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